I wanted to share a little something that happened last night after putting my son to bed. I knew I had to video it because it was a real cool moment for me.

The basic gist for those who can’t or don’t care to watch the video, is that after a frustrating/sad evening trying to communicate with my son who can’t yet speak, I would normally be VERY excited after he was tucked in bed so that I could make myself an enormous bowl of pasta, a couple huge glasses of wine and call it a night.  Pasta is delicious, fast, easy and perfect after a crappy evening being confused and nervous and sad trying to figure out what’s wrong with my son.  Why he understands some things so well and other things just NOT AT ALL.  And the wine…well, that was just a given.  Of course I’d have wine.  GOTTA HAVE WINE!!!!  Lol. But last night, even after it having been tearful at one point for me, I left his room after putting him to bed, I opened the fridge and just started grabbing the ingredients for a good, healthy meal.  WITHOUT EVEN THINKING OF PASTA.  It didn’t even occur to me.  And I didn’t think of wine either!!! I KNOW!  It’s crazy.  And I just thought, “Omg, I would’ve been soooo gluttonous just a couple weeks ago, and look at me now peeling carrots!”  Because even peeling a carrot felt too overwhelming and just too much, you know?

But not now. Now, with the support of the AMAZING gals in my 21 day Accountability Group on Facebook, I’m just feeling really proud. And surprised that not only is it way easier than I thought it would be, it’s actually kind of fun.  I’m serious!  We’re taking pics of our food (which really helps you think twice!), sharing recipe ideas, giving virtual high fives for killing a workout even though it was the last thing you wanted to do, and laughing at moments of weakness and then cheering them on when they brush it off and KEEP GOING.

So, yeah, last night was pretty cool.  I feel really happy about it. 🙂